I think I should spend a bit more effort on this page of mine. Will be changing the layout soon. Have been neglecting this for quite a while. Not sure if I still have any readers. But then again, I write blog mainly for myself to vent frustrations and also a way for me to talk about things that I can't talk to others. Kind of sad when you realised you don't have many close friends to talk to. Or is it me not opening up myself to others? =)
Just went back for reservist. Doing all the drills and wayanging. Waste time if you ask me. But is nice to see old friends who were with me wasting 2 and 1/2 years of my life. Some getting married, some having kids. You see so much changes in all of them. But 1 thing remained unchanged. <-
Totally agree that somethings you will only treasure when you have lost it. As I said before, time waits for no one. If you miss the train to work, you will be late. Same thing. If you miss your opportunity, it will never come again. Trust me on that one, I've been through that. Many times...
I think sometimes I try too hard to please everyone, thinking that if they are happy, I'll be happy too. Or is it most of the time? If I am really happy, how come I still feel lost and empty in the heart? The happiness that I've felt is always short-lived. So the tendency is for me to try to make more people happy, so that feeling accumulates. As what I have learnt from my previous Part-time job as a management executive, I should always absorb all the 'negative' energy from others and turn them 'positive'. Never spread 'negative' to them. Works well if you are running a sales-team or being a manager of a group of subordinates. When it comes to everything else, it's not a good idea. All 'negative' energy has to go somewhere. If I keep absorbing, then where do I release it? I am feeling a bit suffocated. Need help... But where to find? Can You be my SOS?
Suppose to go onto the chopping board later, but I got it postponed. My teeth are not ready. Sudden unexpected interferences… Was all prep to `die’ but then now, I am lost in wat to do. Got my PS3 for that `supposed’ 1 month holiday if I survived the ordeal, now it seems that it’s going to collect dust for a while. Maybe I go buy some more Blu-ray Disc to watch? The HD quality Is really amazing, now I wonder how can I survive with my 19” LCD TV??? I want bigger TV!!!
Some pleasure in life we do not always get to enjoy. So if one fails, I tend to indulge myself into Hi-Tech Toys. Gotten many so the room gets smaller and smaller… But the emptiness somehow gets bigger and bigger… I wonder…
聊不到几句。。。
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Went with JM for dinner at KuShinBo that night. She wasn’t feeling very good that day. So I tried my best to cheer her up a bit. I think it worked. Supposed to be my `last’ dinner… So we were trying to PIG ourselves out. But couldn’t eat a lot too. We were very stuffed after a while. Chatted a lot. Seems that many things are happening. Guess being stuck at the same workplace for so long, you tend to get distant from all the other things happening to you. Oh, she took a BEFORE photo of me. Guess I be taking another one again since the `execution’ has been postponed. I love taking photos, I hate taking photos… =X
Things are getting a bit `heaty’ nowadays. So hard to play 2 roles in the same place. One role, you have to care and be concern. Then the other role, you have to be firm and make sure things are in order. Been making IS very unhappy theses days. I really HATE being the `manager’ of that #$%^ place. It doesn’t pay well, and I got to do so much *&^%. I am going to breakdown soon, really. I can only store for a bit longer… My capacity is reached, going into overdrive now… Things will get overheated really quick if the `cooling system’ is not repaired soon.
So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 1:28 AM
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人生无常，加油让自己做个开心的人！:)
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