以经好久没这样了. 脑海里常浮现那画面. 压抑了好久好久，还以为可以把它埋在心里最深处. 可是还是让它溜了出来. 常怀疑老天，是不是故意捉弄我. 看见我那痛苦的样子，对他来说很有娱乐性吗？玩笑开太大了，不好笑了。但说起来，我也希望着一切都是个玩笑。因为玩笑开完，笑完，一切就回到原点。就可以从新开始经历新的事务。而我现在，就卡在路旁。往前也不是，往后也不是。只是站在那一方，望着来往的人群和事，只能羡慕他人。我也不是在埋怨什么，只是不知如何是好。

Now lets see… What am I going to write about? Well, basically I am slacking at work coz I dun have much planned for the day. Just rotting here waiting for time to pass… Very tired theses days, but then can’t sleep at night… Still stay up till the wee hours before laying myself onto the bed. Come to think of it, I was not doing anything significant during that period, could have gone to Dreamland at 10pm which I always delay till 2am. Too many thoughts, all of which are pointless, But the mind makes it a point to ponder over pointless thoughts more often as compared to other more relevant and useful ideas. This is termed as the Negative mentality.

Put this post on hold for some time… Busy with work? I guess mostly is can’t be bothered. I am already able to clear off one ‘big stone’ from my list now. Kind of relieved, but then I maybe embarking on a new goal to add one other ‘big stone’ back to the list. Already slowing down my pace, now is if can then get, if cannot then dun get. The ‘can’t be bothered’ mentality now.

Went to watch movie with ‘Minne Mouse’. Kind of nice to have company once in a while. She is a nice person to be with. Been going to too many KTV sessions, until now getting phobia. I am still a movie person. =) If not for the gap…

So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 2:25 PM