Would love to start the new year with more joy & happiness here... But it seems like lt has become a sad tradition that I got to make this site as negative as ever... Come to think of it, I only post when I have unhappy things in mlnd. Like I mentioned before, I set up this blog for me to vent frustrations, drown my sorrows, coz I don't have other means of doing so... Well, sometimes I would bother JM a bit, and she would help to absorb a bit for me. But I guess my habit of being a 'sponge' doesn't allow me to 'release' a lot. Unless of course I have 'external' factors squeezing me... But I think this 'sponge' of mine has 'harden' over the years, getting harder to 'squeeze' now.
Think I am making it a habit to 'zhng' my car every mth. Most of the time I plan my 'zhnging'. But the bros from the club can be very 'poisonous'. Stll remember my first time when I went for a club meetup. Felt strange coz you don't know anyone. But eventually, you get comfortable. Also being a Car Club, I get to understand the car a bit more. Knew more frens, and spend more money on the car too!. LOL. That's how strange things can be. The adaptive nature of human being is wonderful. But sometimes, we tend to take things too hard, sudden changes that disrupts the normal workflow, makes it difficult to adjust. I am still adjusting to the change now, and it's so so difficult. Sometimes I just wish time can turn back and stop at that happy moment, but that would never be possible.
I used to have a place to go to, where I can sit down and think thru things. It has a nice 'view', quiet and I can just sit there and observe. =( Now I think I will no longer be going there... Miss that place so much, but going there now, the 'scenery' is never the same again. Have so many moments there, nice and sweet ones, sad and frustrated ones... Many say is best to keep those sweet moments in memory, and forget those sad ones. But the brain just retain them all. Thinking back, it hurts a lot. People say every fall is a lesson, we learn and move on, keeping in mind not to fall again and get hurt. =X I don't know how many times I 'tripped and fell', but I just can't help 'falling' again and again. Human beings really like to do stupid things I guess. Makes us human afterall.
Yes I done things to my car again. Habit like I said, it is what people do when they have so much free time. My car is an Ah Beng car, I just making it more 'Beng'!
Snake lights on my door.
Strangely, when I don't have much things to do, I feel tired. Then it comes to the point that you don't feel like doing anything at all. I guess when you are subjected to a `comfort' zone, you tend to try and get yourself more `comfortable'... Trying to convince myself to get into motion on my free days, to do some 'ECAs'... But i worried i might not get used to it and tend mentally tire myself out... Also, there are factors to worry too. I don't know... I want to ask opinion but when i turn around, I find that I am on my own actually... So is my call to make, my decision to decide, and to bear any consequences that follows... Maybe it's not such a bad idea at all... But then, you never know what is going to happen tomolo... Life is short, so do not end it with regrets... If we live life as if it's going to end the next moment, i believe the perspective towards things will be different. People tend to keep saying, "I'll do it later.", "Let me think first.", etc... They consider many `what if ', calculate the risk and weighing it out with the possible outcome and benefits... So many people never dare to take the first step into doing anything. They prefer to watch others take that step, maybe make a mistake then they can learn from it. They keep saying we should read about how successful people go thru with their life, how they made it, learn from them and dun make the mistakes they make. I feel, if we dun make the mistakes they make, and learn from that, it's hard to reach the kind of mentality those successful people have now. They look at things at a different way, many willing to try, willing to make mistakes, willing to be criticised. If you notice, many of them do not bother about what the common people think of them and their actions and carry out what they think is best for them. Eventually, when they succeed, they can think back at those who laughed at them, and laugh back. When they fail, they learnt from their mistakes and try again, until they succeed. Thru that they build up their character and mentality to carry on. That is what made the 5% of the successful people in the world, with 95% of us 'commoners' envying on them...
想了好久，还是想不到如何能表达。
就有如一片大海，偏偏不起浪。
一眼看过去，只是一片空。
不管你多么用力吹，海水还是无动于衷。
So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 8:07 AM
1 seconds of my life
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8:19 AM,
inoka said...
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好一句海水还是无动于衷。
短短几个字，
却让我深深感到你的万般无奈。。
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