What Am I Doing Here...???!!! Again...???!!!

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Monday, August 29, 2005

Why must people change? Or is it that people always wear a mask to hide their true identity behind it? Saw some change of my friends who have graduated… They aren’t like they were before when they were in school… It’s really scary… Are the care and concern that they used to have all just a show??? =(

My crown competency was SUCKY. Had a 30 degree taper bucco-lingually and my occlusal was under-reduced… Did it with CNC. He indicated it to be a gold crown… Think I was pretty tired and too attentive on the margins of the prep so I didn’t see my bur angulation. He passed me thou, but I hate that. I know I failed and it was a critical error. To pass out of good will is really kind of him. But it makes me feel very bad…

Helped out with Terrence for his Class Play for BuffetNite… His class doesn’t seem to be bothered about it… Kind of like my class… Well, Martin was saying he need to read up for his competencies… Then he gave this can’t be bothered look… I helped not because I wan to gain any recognition from the play. I helped because I know the feeling of seeing my class waiting for things to happen. I think this happens every year, where the class will think some idiot will do up the class play for BuffetNite so he/she no need to be bothered about it. They just quietly hide in one corner and try to siam the `idiot’ who is helplessly going round for help. Then they will appear at BuffetNite to enjoy the movie… People with initiative are termed as idiots who waste time doing extra stuffs… This idiots are left along and no one wants to help them… I really pity those entrepreneurs who made the initiative to start business and get mock by all their frens and relatives. They are what the Prime Minister asked to be, venture to the unknown, do business, take initiative, etc… Yet they are laughed at and seen as amusing clowns. My Lan Shop idea is not going to give up, and so is my handicraft shop…

Do I have time for anything? Well, I am in sch from 8am to 7.30pm. I do my lab work, rush my cases… I dun take lunch, so must go home for dinner. I need to sleep too and some time for traveling and personal time(aka toilet, comb hair,etc) Also there is this period of the day I need to just sit down and do nothing… Slack for a while… Ouch, just nit my cheek… Pain… =( So lets see… Basically, 8am to 7.30pm is 11hrs 30 mins. I take minimum 1hr 30 mins to travel from home to sch and vice versa… I discount a bit, my personal time is 1 hr which includes brushing teeth, toilet, bathing, dinner… Then I take 1 hr to slack a bit… My sleep I say maybe just 6hrs loh… So lets see huh… 11hr30mins + (1hr30minsX2)+1hr+1hr+6hrs=22hrs 30mins… That leaves me 1hr 30mins for any other thing else… And so, how can anyone expect me to do my studying, prepare patient stuff, do the STUPID FYP Lego+Poster+programming, call my patient, reply annoying SMSes… And dun tell me leave some time to write blog lah… WTF??? I mean who’s the one with all the time here? Who’s the one who wants to go the competition and win that stupid prize? It’s not me so why am I so bothered about doing the poster??? You know how much time I have to spend redoing and redoing, coordinating with Prof Hsu, book the room for meeting.. I am not EVEN A F#$KING BIT INTERESTED IN THE STUPID WASTE OF TIME COMPETITION IN MALACCA… I should have been into designing or multimedia field… Cos that’s what I am PRACTICALLY DOING every night when I come home…

Currently, I am left with my last bridge issue, crown competency issue… I dun have any OHP under restorative, and I only got 2 OHP with Perio… My long case short case…. Wat the hell… Never gave a shit about them…

Went night cycling to Pasir Ris on Saturday night… Been a while since I cycled that far… Never had the chance cos most my frens working now… Meet up with Kenneth and had a drink at the nearby Kopitam… My friend abit CMI that night… Cycle a bit the leg all soft soft liao… Can see him Shag out liao… Haiz, and I thought I was the unfit one… Pretty fun thou…

Eh, think my blog getting a bit monotone liao… No pictures to add to the flavor… Hmm… But then again, I took the whole day to write this entry loh, since 6am in the morning… now close to midnight liao loh… Dun care lah… Next time my entry only got picture no words…

要我改变世界，我办不到。。。
我只是一个人，能有多大的能量？
就算我有那么大的能量，我也要问自己。。。
这个世界不单单属于我一个人。。。
为什么要我去改变它呢？

ZZZzzz

So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 2:00 AM

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At 11:11 PM, Mojave said...

Forgot to add, I am still broken...
Still got to get a new monitor...
=(

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Malaysia 5-star hotel!!??? WTF!!!???

Monday, August 22, 2005

Ok, think I stoned enuff in front of the computer. Time to start writing. Think I got a lot to complain abt… By the way, Check mentioned that all the blogs he read is all about people complain… Think quite true leh… See, I am going to start complaining soon…

The FYP thingy really sucks. I am really having th `Can’t be bothered’ mood liao… Do the poster for the competition really sian… Got to change this change that… Then change already he dun like, must change again… Really getting fed up by doing it loh. School already so bad liao, still give me all this shit. I really dun care to win the stupid IADR thingy loh… Win for FUCK!?!?!? Win liao still must prepare and go present again… Totally no point one loh. The thing is that our results were `meant’ to happen one… So you can say we all bullshit one… That time I was like just trying to making the statistics look reasonable… So easy to calculate loh… Then the hotel and seminar cost is USD$250!!! Oh my GOD!!! Is only Malaysia leh… Then I dun wan the 5-star hotel loh… Stay 5-star also no point… Waste money only… I really broke liao loh… Saying money for my internet bill and insurance premium already super headache, where to find cash to go??? Come to think of it, if really cannot find the money, then I just fix the lego and tell them to present with the lego moving loh… Just show the lego video, then I no need to be there one mah… Might as well just do that… Go there waste time, money and my life.

Money, is it everything??? I see people who are earning money, but they are so stingy as to ask for bargains and discounts while people like me who has no money dun do that. I mean… You see situations where those who are working and earning money say “Wah, no money to buy this buy that… Can I borrow yours to use…” Oh come on… I am a super poor student but I know when I need to buy something, I will buy one loh… Those people just save wat ever they have and try to get the cheapest bargain in town. SUCKs man… They got money dun wan to spend, I got no money but I need to spend… WTF

Lab work has sort of ended for now… I never have to stay back for lab work. If I do, that means I am doing someone else’s lab work. Saw the yr 3s discussing that some of them need the stuff from the technicians back asap so they can issue to their patients. But the things they ask the lab tech to do are those they learned b4 one… Then they still complain why the technicians need so long to do some things… You wan it fast then DIY loh… Why send in? My dentures always come out in time…

Been playing for a few days now… My Maplestory Character is level 17… =) Was talking about online gaming and how lucrative it is… A lot of people really so addicted, they literally die for it… Got people go steal money lah, died in front of the computer screen… It’s a really addictive game and is never ending… Really think that my LAN shop business will be good.

Life is getting harder… Especially when you feel you are all alone in school… It isn’t that much fun anymore. Sharon keep asking me to go buffetnite… But then, I have no mood… Even that night I won’t be doing anything or be playing with my gang, I dun feel like going… Is this fear of letting the juniors see me… Might give them the impression that DENTAL School is very difficult… Wait… I think that’s the truth right??? But then they will say how come others can and I cannot??? Am I slower than the rest??? I do my lab work faster than anyone in my class… Then why I am still here??? Why I always help others with their lab work??? Dr Mok was saying I am being bullied… Am I??? Are you guys bullying me??? Questions that won’t be answered…

Hmmm… came to realize that my Blog got no sound… Went to check on Angelfire, they say I violated some issues??? Huh??? WTF??? Totally nonsense…

忘了有多久，再没听到你。。。
对我说你最爱的故事。。。
我想了很久，我开始慌了。。。
是不是我又做错了什么。。。

我哭着对你说，童话里都是骗人的。。
我不可能，是你的王子。。。
也许你不会懂。。。
从你说爱我以后。。
我的天空，星星都亮了。。。

我愿变成，童话里，你爱的那天使。。。
张开双手，变成翅膀守护你。。。
你要相信，相信我们会像童话故事里。。。
幸福和快乐是结局。。。

So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 4:45 AM

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I want to go home and sleep!!! ZZZzzz

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Been playing too much lately… Think I am running away from the stress I am getting from the last few weeks of school… Now my crown competency patient cannot come tomolo… Holy Shit!!! Then got my bridge case assigned to Catherine, but she can’t rush it by this coming Thursday… Double KILL!!! I am tired and sleepy, just want to go back to bed… ARGH! WTF…

Downloading MapleStory and MUOnline again… Lost both my accounts, a bit pek chek… Got to start all over again. Tried my GunBound on Saturday, heng it still works… But the interface changed a lot now… dunnoe how to play liao...

Took out Check’s wisdom teeth on Friday, wah stressed… Dr John Loh really grilled me on the procedures… Was asked to the small details of the op… Cannot smoke him… A bit paiseh too coz I got Bien as assistant… Jialat, very MaLu that day… Then Check dun listen to my POI one… After that still smoke!!! Die… Wait Wednesday I see him, the op site becomes necrotic, get dry socket then he really GG… I knew coz we went to Haoyi’s place after the op. We played LAN at meridian till 6am… I know I shouldn’t but really can’t take it when school is so Fuck up now… Got this new cleaner DAMN CB one, stay a bit longer than 7pm go complain to prof neo… Now all cannot stay liao… Still remember last time can stay till like 10-11pm illegally lah, but the cleaner never complain. This one really KNNBCCB… It’s ok for me coz I can finish in time, but to see him come into the LAB and sit at one corner watching us do work from 6pm to 7pm is damn IRRITATING loh… Majiam scared we overshot the time, must wait there and chase us off… If I can, I will set 8 remote mines down there with 15 land mines to blow him up. It is 23 X 600 = 13800 damage…. If not enuff I go suicide him with the extra 1550 damage. NB, he lvl 25 with 6 soul boosters also not enuff… EXTRA kia…

Doing a lot of things lately other than studying… FYP stuff, webpage, video editing… Really take my mind off school… Sometimes I wonder whether I am suited to be a dentist or not? I always wanted to learn everything, to know as much things before I leave this world. So there won’t be any regrets that I never tried this or tried that… So you can see many things I only half bucket of water one (半桶水)… Maybe I should consideration being a designer or creative director or some thing like that… But come to think again, I not that creative too… Haiz… Haoyi best lah, working in a LAN shop, play games is working, working is play games… Then the father going to pass all his insurance clients to him… GG… No need to bother about finding work… Haiz…

Been in and out of LAN shops quite frequent… Everytime I am there, I can see that the shops are always crowded… Then people will always play the usual games… It’s like it’s never going to be out of trend. If you notice, nowadays the gaming industries are coming out so many online games, Massive online RPGs, games that requires team play and such… Really setting up a LAN shop now can earn big bucks one loh… I know the start up is high, but then judging from the turnover rates of 2 dollars per hour, I dun think it’s a worthless business loh. Really don’t agree with Dr Wilson Goh… He said dun bother about gaming business… Well, he’s not my target customer mah… Then he only plays golf… OK. I will set up my LAN shop, make it islandwide, earn my big bucks and start up a country club with a big golf course and REJECT his application for membership!!! Hahahaha… Wicked Sick…

Ok, I know I know… I am Daydreaming again. But hey, the Wright brothers also were daydreaming about flying that time… See wat we have now??? =)

So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 3:05 AM

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At 3:42 AM, Check said...

wah gay...

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Is it time for Spring cleaning??? Again???

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

My room is in a big mess now… A lot of Rubbish piling up… My computer also… Tonnes of rubbish files in the hard disk. Just deleted the videos from Dr Victor Lee… Let’s hope he doesn’t ask me to reedit the thing again…. Oh, I just cleared my 30GB HDD just now… Transferred the OrthoBand videos back into the desktop… Now my HDD is free, can use to store more stuffs…. =) Anyone can lend me their NARUTO avis? I am downloading NARUTO from epi 1 to now… Borrowed from my frens to watch so now I dun have them. Want to keep a set for myself. Managed to burn my first Naruto DVD for epi 1-25… now downloading 26-50… So somebody spare me the agony of re-downloading and just lend me his/her collections??? I wan the avi format, dvix, 170MB +/- version… Don’t want the rm version…

Confronted someone today… Have this feeling inside me that is growing stronger and stronger. I think I know wat is happening… But then again, it doesn’t seem that way anymore. Tried ways to re-confirm my suspicion, but they all didn’t give a clear answer. All very vague… I just don’t want something to happen… Or do I? Haiz… I don’t know wat I am saying…

Vitia came to my house yesterday… Don’t know wat he did, press here press there… Bingo!!! Now my computer can host games on Bnet!!! Haha… Ownage!!! Hosted a few games last night and the response were pretty good too… Now no need to wait for people to create game then join, and I can KICK those bastard leavers and noobs myself… Hahahaha…Wicked Sick!!!

Wonder how Patricia is doing… Maybe I sms her tomolo to ask her. Actually I miss that little teddy (the name is 小 Pat) that I gave her. 小 Pat is really cute loh… Hope the BIG Pat got take good care of 小 Pat… heehee… Also hope that Patricia is doing fine and well too…

Left out the National Day Celebration and was doing my FYP poster. Actually I was thinking why people would find means to go all the way there to watch… Watch at home got TV zoom in and close up… Isn’t it better? I know the be there and experience the crowd thingy, but then u might be sitting so far behind the crowd that u only see the crowd and not the performance and display… Also, the tickets are so hard to come by… The organizers should give us all one ticket mah… So all can go see… Get a bigger area and just do all the performance there… Then no need to have people bidding for the tickets online and paying hundreds of dollars for them… Really spoils the image here about the country. It’s like we have to pay so much for something that everyone in the country should have the privilege to enjoy… I mean… You want to talk about the country’s identity as compared to the other countries… How would this move add to the image huh???

“Regret is the price we pay when we do things at the wrong time… But then if we were to know what to do at that time, we would have regretted even more for not doing it… As someone has once said, ignorance is bliss…”

So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 2:40 PM

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You can't see me... I am hiding...

Saturday, August 06, 2005

Another week has past… Actually I have a weekly planner from AIA which I am using now to keep track of my appt and schedules. But as I was flipping through it, I realized a major discovery. It’s only ¼ filled!!! Only got timetable and nothing else… Haiz… Think I am still a technological dependent freak… Can’t do anything without a computer… Can’t wait to get my pocket PC… Hey, where’s my Palm??? Dunnoe where I left it liao… OMFG… It’s a 600+ dollars worth of metal and glass!!! Got to find it… Tomolo then say lah… Very sian ½ liao…

This week pretty exciting… Saw my patient for 1 whole freaking DAY… 9-5pm… I not so mean lah, she got lunch break one… (Actually because is the clinic got to close from 1 to 2pm… Otherwise I would have carry one one…) Presented FP E&D, cut post space prep on #36(badly broken down), took impression for indirect cast post-core technique and cut my bridge from #45-#47. Well, the amzing thing is , I only got help for half the time… 80% of the bridge prep was cut with only me alone… Wah, and the patient’s saliva was like waterfall, impression super hard to take… Then the tongue like super active loh… Really fed up and really want to use my high speed diamond to cut that stupid tongue away man. Got so fed up that day, gave up studying man… Went to watch movie instead. (Oh, I super broke liao…)

Watch Seven Swords… Pretty nice show, but I think the censorship board cut too much liao… The whole show became patchy… Otherwise it would be as OWNING as BATMAN!!! No special effects bah… At least I dun see a lot of CG… (Is there any CG in the first place?) Give it a 3.5 out of 5 stars, but blame that on the censorship board.

Feeling very out of place… How should I put it…??? Very lost in school… A bit like dunnoe where I belong to… Trying to keep away from `things’ (living and non-living). Think I am getting myself into isolation. Judging from my counter, my blog has been getting cobwebs lately. No visitors, well not a lot lah… GOOD. I can say whatever I like now… I have more space now to vent my whatever emotion I have.

But like I said, I have a boring life now… Aimless and sleepy every morning… Haiz… Nothing to talk abt…

My councillee is in deep shit. She got OWNED by Dr Soh Jen… He wrote a letter of COMPLAIN of her to Prof ONG!!! Jasmine kena BS liao… Critical hit some more… Think now is pending suspension of clinics… Wat happened? Better not say, wait some busybody go tell Jasmine is about it… Then I will kena her LVL 6 ultimate… Then I really GG…

FYP sucks man… We going Malacca to present the thing, all 4 going but the committee only paying for 1 person… Was looking at the hotel stay charges… Frankly, I can’t afford loh… Really very dry on cash now… I dun have that kind of money to go anywhere now… Even going to school I got to plan when I should take the shuttle service or 95A… Think sooner or later, I’ll be walking to school from the MRT station liao… And my legs are hurting again… Double KILL…Your champion has fallen…

Now I got to do the stupid poster for the competition… Why did we win that time? Should have let Terry’s group get it… Now all the shitty things all pile up… Really sian ¾ liao loh… But I’ll be doing it tomolo loh… Tonight is relax time… Blogging and a bit of DoTAing… Actually hor, DoTA getting a bit too sian also. OH, by the way guys, I bought SWAT 4 also. OWNING game. GG. Definitely WICKED SICK MAN… Should try to play it. SUPER FUN man….

So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 1:45 AM

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