好比如站在窗外，
看着那块在溶化的雪糕。
望着最爱的巧克力冰淇淋，
心里想要嚐一口。
但是，只能站在哪兒而不能前進。
常常問自己為甚麼，沒答案。
因為難題不是自己想出來，
而是別人所給的。
我能問別人嗎？
Life is never what we choose to be. Sometimes we have to do things we don't like, just to get by everyday. To make choices that we do not wish for, so that lives of others can go on. Because it is never about our own life, rather is about lives of others around us, as our life revolves around them. Ever wondered if there were no one around, and you are the only one in the world??? Then would you be able to live the life you wanted? But then, what life is left to live in without anyone to share it with? Then why live??? Don't worry, i am not sucidal...
Took me a while to complete this entry... Being drowned with work till almost to the top of my head. I am really tired... Physically and mentally... Don't want to think so much now... Just work till the last day and hopeful the grass becomes greener on the other side... Well, the grass is always greener when you have not stepped on it. Once you set foot on the new patch of grass, it already started to turn yellow. Soon you be admiring the other grass patch and start to make your way there. And it goes on, and on, and on... Painted by my colleague, PW. Real talent!!! Nice friend too...
A lot things happened around me. Alot of hellos and goodbyes... Most of us welcome the `hellos' briefly, but when it comes to `goodbyes' we become more irrational and emotional... Workplace changed alot. Never the same as before. Miss those days... Trying very hard to get back the `feeling' now, but is so much more difficult... Then i keep asking myself, why try so hard... But then if i don't try, who will??? Kind of miss those times when we just `wait for things to happen'... Now here we are `trying hard to make things happen'... I am going to miss the `Ribeye'...
问自己，活在这世上，
到底是为了什么？
问自己，要活地快乐，
到底要做些什么？
问自己，生活有痛苦，
到底痛的是什么？
是疲惫的肉体，还是破碎的心灵？
问自己，问题那么多，
到底有没有答案呢？
如果没有答案，那问不问自己，
都毫无意义了。
So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 12:49 AM
0 seconds of my life
TEQUILA on the ROCKS please, make it double...
Sunday, July 05, 2009
Kind of unusual for me to write a post so near to my previous one. But then being given 7 days of nothing to do, this is one of the things that i am trying to pass my time with. Things gotten a bit worse after day 1, but now i guess it's under control. The `heat' just came back, so i got to pop in another set of ammo. Still haven't gotten my `liquid chemical', maybe i will go down to the `ammo dump' and sign some out with my card...
Now i dunnoe wat to write about. =X I am stuck in this small room of mine, day and night... I manage to `tidy up' some of my `things'... I realised i have lost some of them but manage to salvage the majority. Now got to find time to do `research' and get back all of them. Maybe I have to update some of them too, but we shall see... With all the time, been leveling up my card skills... Got improve a bit, but still much lower level than HY. When to the `epic item' shop that day to browse on the items, but my level do not allow me to use the items yet. So back to training again!!!
My IRAS bill came. =X Going to be broke again... Recently talked to YS, we also talked abt the S eleven issue. She said `Money isn't everything'... Well, I thought it was a typical statement. True, there are things money can't buy. Things like our health, close friends, buddies, family... These are things with a `form'. Things without a `form', like emotions, memories, are too priceless... No matter how rich someone is, he/she will never be able to pay the price for them. Then this is the statement i replied. `Money is almost everything'... =) She was asking me why i never further my studies...
每一天的生活，只环绕在一个固定的程序当中。
每一天的周围，重复着一样的面孔。
每一天的时间，大部分都是你一个人。
滋味好比如一杯加了冰块的Tequila.
苦中又带点冰凉，喝后会有种自由的感觉。
喝多了，整个人就会麻木，迷失方向。
而带你回到现实的，就是酒醒的痛苦。
So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 8:25 PM
1 seconds of my life
At
8:51 AM,
said...
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i dun need a new phone now,u save the money for urself bah.... ;>
When things don't go as you planned, you adapt to the changes that present in front of you... What if you do not want to adapt???
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Spending weeks to prepare, having countless of sleepless nights. Changes after changes... Trying to create the balance and yet to conform with the demands was never easy, but it all worked out somehow at the last minute before the start of the operation. However, when the operation is about to roll out, I couldn't be there. =X Everything was in chaos and changes are made again. Now I think back, why waste so much time on the preparation and still end up so unpepared... All my effort just went down to the drain... I noticed that i didn't post anything last 2 month. Guess i was really that busy, huh...
Why am i writing this??? Oh, I am given medical leave for 7 days to stay at home. Ring a bell??? The only time when i am free is when i am `force to be free'... Get wat i mean??? Otherwise at this time of the day, I'll be fighting battle with my comrades in the battlefield. Yesterday was when i am suppose to lead the front, but now i am letting my new comrades charge forward to the enemy grounds and i am at home... Really suck big time, especially since when so much planning was done and preparation for the big day yesterday began since weeks ago...
JM came back to visit. We were suppose to meet up. But now i am stuck with this... Was really hoping to meet up with her, so can eat and talk our hearts out. Been so long since i was able to do that. Now got to cancel coz i am sick. And the worst thing is, i am going to stuck at home all this while. Some people can still go to work when they are not feelin well, but I can't. Mine will be like a major offense if i do so... =X
时不时，都会想起。。。
日子过得好吗？
不管那么用力，
躲不了想遗忘的阴影。
式着往前，但又不知不觉倒退。
Haven't been doing much things lately. Other than the usual cheap movies with frens, mostly i am stuck between work and home. Now that VT is back, we are going cycling every weekend. Trying to reduce my `resistance', so my car can go a bit faster... LOL... I already lost 2 bikes before which i spend like my whole fortune then. After the last bike, i said to myself never to go back to bike craze again. Now with my weekend cycling, that passion is coming back. Oh my `Guan Yin'... Now i got to set aside some funds for the bike again... =X The car already sucking up a lot, now the bike... Haiz... Thing you do when u are not `under control'...
This is the new toy i want to get. For wat use??? It allows you to watch things that u can only see on your computer screen onto your LCD TV. =) I got great plans for this!!! Wahahaha...
*Cough Cough*
So many things, so little time... "Mojave" 9:54 AM
2 seconds of my life
At
8:38 AM,
inoka said...
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badjojo.com was what that came to my mind about your great plans.
lolsss
At
1:05 PM,
Mojave said...
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LOL
Naughty naughty...
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