What Am I Doing Here...???!!! Again...???!!!

Studying at home, not a good move... Computer too near me... Argh... Temptations!!!

Friday, September 30, 2005

Blogging on a Friday afternoon at home… Wat I am doing at home on a school day??? Haha… I skip school lah… Today half day and is only ortho clinic so… Here I am… Not going to write much… Just that can’t get into study mood after school everyday coz very tired… Assistant the whole say, I WAN TO SLEEP…

I foresee something is happening and I dunnoe whatever I am doing is helping the situation or making things worst…

我不是不要，而是怕你看到。。。
我不是不想，只是时间未到。。。
岁月不留人，但记忆是永恒。。。
永恒的画面，不被时间改变。。。
留在我心里，让我每天思念。。。
思念着你。。。

I should be a poet… Haha… =X

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Really Tired...???!!!

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Ok… Last day of Holidays… Been slacking for the last 3 days… Why? Well, it’s supposed to be holidays!!! And no one can take it from studying 3 weeks straight… Well, I can’t… Might not be writing anymore for the time to come coz when school opens its SUPER MAD RUSH to finish studying… Scary!!! I don’t know wat is going to be like… But hey, life’s like that… You never know wat’s coming…

Went to watch Night Watch with the Tambis on Friday evening. Not very owning show, despite Vithia constant praises about the movie… Maybe just not my type. DX was saying it has the element of Matrix and Lord of the Rings… I was expecting that but it wasn’t anywhere close… It’s a about the Good and Bad maintaining a balance and that a “Chosen One” will come into the picture and end the ‘war’… Normal plot… Effects were good… Just maybe missing a certain “Wow” element…

Oh by the way, saw YUTING that night also… She’s watching the Myth with her boyfriend… Think last say her 2 years ago bah… Or is it one year? She didn’t change at all… =) Still that same ‘cute’ looking and the buccally placed canines… SHE NEEDS THE ORTHO man… Maybe should try to psycho her again… We couldn’t talk long coz I was waiting for the guys and the show time was up…

Had a movie marathon yesterday… Got tonnes of show downloaded so I was watching them all… Got some crappy ones and some good ones… Think I got to organize my library of CDs!!! Must ‘document’ them and lock them in a vault so in case I KENA spot check… Opps… Any anti-piracy people here??? Wait they read this then next day I kena search warrant…. GG

Oh… I haven’t cut my hair!!! ARGH!!! Prof Neo is going to scream at me again… Better siam Prof Tan also… Still wonder how to cut it thou… Hmmm…

Michelle’s bdae falls on my exam day… =( Got to get her a present soon… Still thinking of ideas… What would a teacher need??? Hmmm… She just got into MOE and now taking the course… She had some problems with the previous job so chose to teach instead… Too bad can’t celebrate with her… But I guess she will understand… Hadn’t call Uncle Lawrence down for treatment for a long time liao… Hmmm… Maybe I should pass that case to Tammy… Got endo and crowns to be done… Might scrap thru as exam case… I gotten him for my OF competencies but… All failed… Not because I couldn’t restore them, which I did VERY NICELY… My both amalgams CL IIs were superbly craved!!! Just that I couldn’t answer Prof Neo question well… Haiz…

Have been very quiet lonely… My Pri Sch and Sec Sch classmates are organizing stuffs and I haven’t been replying the mails… No mood bah… Don’t feel too good to be around them now… Let’s hope my ordeal will end soon… Although I do have this tendency of FAILING on the first try… =( Haiz… I am tired… Really very tired…

Got a few changes in sch… One call Wendy Weng izzit? Prosthodontist from Taiwan… Visiting Fellow… Then think Soh Jen is leaving soon… Hmmm… Unreliable source… Prof Yap apparently is still back with us although we heard something about him leaving the Faculty… Maybe is the end of the month bah… School starts tomolo… Hate that…

被这一闪光包围的流星，代表它是被爱神的翅膀所带着飞翔的。
所以在这颗流星坠落之前，如果被世间的情侣所看到的话，
他们的爱会被紧紧地锁住。
就像被爱神的翅膀紧紧地托住一样，会被永远的记上爱情的记号。

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Freeze in the Liquid Nitrogen and store me somewhere...

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Holidays are finishing soon… What a waste… Totally didn’t enjoy the holidays at all… Been going through all my textbooks ever since and they are really a pain to read. There are so many pages… How to finish reading??? =( Don’t know even will I be prepared enuff for the exams or not… Haiz… Cases of dengue are getting scarier everyday… Wonder would I be as lucky as to kena dengue on the night b4 my paper. Hmmm, like that then really GG liao…

Played with liquid nitrogen that night at my friend’s lab… Cool man… Really fun when you dipped tissue paper in and see it starts to smoke… At the end of his experiment, he was throwing the liquid nitrogen on the floor… It evaporated instantly!!! Owning!!! These few days at his lab, was really fun. Learned and saw a lot of new things… Dr Tony Tan mentioned about education and research being the next step in boosting Singapore’s economy… We have to have intellectual assets to allow us to be marketable and to create better goods and services here. Hmmm… Maybe I can go into research and bring my LEGO robot to the next level!!! Global Domination!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!! (Don’t worry, I know I am siao liao…)

Nothing much to write about these days… Everyday is the same… Wake up, change, go to IMCB… Study till late night come home… May or may not go online… Then sleep… Then the cycle continues… BORING!!! Getting sick of it liao… But then I can’t… I haven’t finished studying… Later going to school to do booking… Still wondering should I study today or not… ZZZzzz…

I wonder why I am bothered so much about whether you are feminine or not??? Kind of no big deal to me but then I just am so KAPO… Trying hard to convince you about some things you should try to do… But then u are MORE stubborn than me… I never say girls wear T-shirt and shorts not feminine, just that the T-shirt and shorts don’t work for you that well. Troublesome you say… OF COURSE lah… 爱美不是这么容易的！！！ Of course is troublesome lah… Otherwise who will spend effort, time and money to go SPA, salon and do facial leh??? Nurture is important in the creation of your character I know, but if you think that because of that and that’s why you can’t change, you will be stuck with wat u are… Nobody copes with changes well… But we have to change sometimes… Otherwise NATURE will select us away. Darwin’s Evolution… Not asking you to go for extreme makeover, spend loads of money… We change change bit by bit… Slowly progress to other things when the situation allows it… Haiz… Don’t want to argue…

放风筝的感觉，就好像对着一个很遥远的对象，
远远的看着他。
虽然距离很远，但是心里总是不至於绝望。
因为你知道你手上握着这条线，就像是一种不断的缘分，
牵引着彼此。

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Owning IMCB, OWNED brain...

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Been studying everyday since Friday last week… Yesterday I was reading Proffits in the Biopolis IMCB (I Am Chee Bye) Library and I got to this paragraph which I couldn’t get into my head… I been reading and reading for like umpteen times… Still don’t understand… I was wondering wat I was reading… It didn’t seem like a language I know… Then I realized something… I was BRAIN-DEAD!!! Argh… Nothing can enter my mind for that few hours… OMG… I know then I needed a break… =(

Was on the train home last night when one of my ‘sis’ called… She wanted to treat me lunch tomolo coz I helped her did something in the past… So I was wondering why not??? I was brain-dead anyway… So we meet at 11am today but I suggested watching a movie instead, a comedy… She got stressed at work and I think both of us need something to laugh about… So we watched…

Yes… It’s HERBIE FULLY LOADED… Herbie (AKA #53), the sweet little '63 Volkswagen bug with a mind of his own and a serious love for speed, pairs with Lindsay Lohan in HERBIE: FULLY LOADED for a sunny comedy. Maggie Peyton (Lohan) is a third generation member of a NASCAR racing family and dreams of winning from behind the wheel, but her protective dad Ray Peyton, Sr. nixes the idea, while her brother Ray, Jr. (Breckin Meyer) carries on the family legacy (even though he's not a very good driver). After graduating from college and securing a job at ESPN, Maggie has one month at home before leaving for New York City. When Ray Sr. offers her a car as a graduation gift, they visit a junk yard to pick out a used stock car and end up coming home with a thrilled Herbie. Maggie quickly discovers Herbie is more than just a regular car, and soon they're on their way to realizing her dreams of racing glory while battling ego-inflated champ Trip Murphy (Matt Dillon) with the help of her cute mechanic friend Kevin (Justin Long).

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Choice of Biopolis Vs Student Lounge

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Finally finished downloading my Naruto from episode 1 to 150 liao... Seems like my cry for help last time didn't do much good coz no one lend me... =( But now is ok... Got all of them in 6 DVDs... Yeah, talk about storage!!! 150 episodes in only 6 discs... OMG... Think I should start to burn all my videos CDs into DVDs liao... That's going to save so much SPACE!!! Smallville!!! Let's go!!!

Writing part of this blog in the student lounge on Saturday... Dunnoe if I am going to post it on the same day or not. I planned to study 5-day week and rest on the weekends… But then I already slacked on Monday and Thursday liao… Must make it up. So I guess I would be here too on Sunday. Got to stick to my plan… Otherwise I will never get into the mood… Then why I am writing my blog now??? Well, is a Saturday!!! Attention span is reduced!!! Get bored easily… So ‘eat snake’ a bit. Lounge really quiet and BORING!!! Good place cos not much distraction except for the few PCs here…

Haha… The slacker is back in the lounge again. Went back at 7pm last night and started to OWN the PC… So never continue the entry. Today more quiet… Yesterday still got some one at CiTA… Think might be Mr Lim and his children… Coz I can hear some kids running about…

On the way back last night, Check asked me to go play Lan at Shaw Tower… I rejected… Howyee and Vitia going too… I can sense that I am very restricted. I dun have much freedom. Really envy them can just say go then go… I got home and my dad was back. Really tempted to drive down there to meet them… But I got to study today… Really hate this… I WANT to get out of here… Dental School… Never was my choice anyway… But it has been giving me all the pain and frustrations for the past 4+ years. Why is dental school so hard to get in and out??? Don’t understand… Can’t take the Final paper because I din finish my schedule… CRAPPY is what everyone says… I pay tones of money… (Really tones loh…) And I got to get my own patients, arrange my own appointments… (Ok, think I have complained about this before… Shall stop it coz the lines seems familiar)

Huemin scold me again… Wrote something she didn’t like on my blog… Really dun like her to say all those things she say. She a nice girl, maybe because of the environment she was brought up, she has this ‘tough’ image which she projects… Can sense a little of the soft and innocent girl inside her but her ‘tough’ image masked the whole feminine side of her… She says she can’t change… Why??? It doesn’t hurt by being more feminine… Just don’t get agitated so easily… Don’t scream at your brothers so much. U are just their sister… Let your mum do the screaming… Think she’s the ‘mother’ of the gang of girls in sch… You don’t really have to ACT like one… Better off, why not just be SISTERS all of you… She’s not that old… Calling her `mum’ is a bit over kill…

Well, it took me 3 days to write this... Can'tIbelieve I am spending so much time on this thing... Right now i am in Biopolis, in a lab of a friend of mine. Got to know this place from him. Really OWNING placeIto study here... The library is FREAKING QUIET and NOBODY and I say NOBODY comes to chase you out!!! Been here since last friday. Just finished my routine today so slacking for a while. Actually played CashFlow just now with his bunch of friends... I was an ENGINEER!!! Haha... Almost turned out to be one in real life... Maybe it was destined... I SHOULD have been one... Was better in my maths and phIsics... Biology wasn't really my cup of tea in JC... Although i gotten an A for the 'A' levels, but that was my first A in the 2 years of my JC life...!!! Anyway, back to the game... Had an OWNING great time playing... Really fun so guys if you all got the chance just try it out... Lost to a 'lawyer'... Hahaha... Lawyers suck the living dead out of you, don't they... (no offense)

Actually got something to talk about... Had the idea a few days ago... Just can't remember... Shall write next time...

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Not Feeling well, slacking at home...

Friday, September 09, 2005

As you all know, I have started my study week. Went to the Tampines library on Tuesday, it was noisy and crowded. Started on the subject I hated most, ENDODONTICS… Kept falling asleep while reading… =( Went to the Airport on Wednesday, but I got chased out by the cleaner there… First time in all my years of studying there, I got chased out!!!! WTF!!! End up going to Expo to study, but there also can’t make it… It’s pretty hard studying alone… Well, it wasn’t that bad last time… This time it was just getting worst and worst… Maybe it’s just me left in the whole school taking exams… Kind of pressurized but then already having the bochap mentality… Kenneth used to study with me, so at least I wasn’t alone that time… But he got trouble with his schedule, so he `gave up’ liao… =(

Anyway, was dragged to watch the longest yard by my friends on Monday evening… That made me even more broken… But then it was a nice show… Good to have something to laugh about in the midst of all this `CHAOS’. It was a show about an Ex-football quarterback who got suspended when he fixed one of the games. He got pretty depressed and started to do stupid things and ended up jail. In jail, he was `asked’ to assemble a team of inmates to play football against the guards of that jail. He got a hard time from the guards who are always out to make his life miserable. That motivated him to form the team. But he wasn’t well like in the jail community at first so finding players was pretty hard. Many hilarious events happened during the try-outs. Finally he came up with a team and BEAT the Hell out of the guards… Rated 4 stars by me. It’s a must watch show. Well, anything with Adam Sanders is a sure `make u laugh till u drop’ show loh I think…

My team won second place in the IDAR competition. Dunnoe how much money we won, but I GLAD all that shit was over. Lennie from Malaysia was there too. She met Libeng and she asked about me… Hmmm. Still got her handphone number, so tried to SMS her… Caught her when she was on the bus back to her Uni… Chatted for a while… Surprised she still remembers me… =)

Think things are getting better between me and Huemin… Still think she is mad at me…
But at least she answers my call. She gotten 'Him' to coach her… Hmmm I wonder if that’s her first move… So the 'Him' must give chance ok? She’s a nice girl...

知不知道什么是神？
神以前也是人。
不过他做了人做不到的事，
所以他成了神。

到底是什么事人做不到呢?
有谁能告诉我。。。

Think i made u angry again... Sorry... =(

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MIss my CSI, DULAN TO THE MAX!!!!!!

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Haiz… Sorry for the boring entry again… Got to get a Digital Camera soon… Taking pictures with my handphone is alright but I dun have a infra-red port anymore… So cannot upload…

Update on sch… Issued my competency crown on Tuesday, last bridge on Thursday… So by right I should have completed my schedule… (Except for the OHPs and blue book) Dr Chan mentioned to me about my crown competency, he said he would have failed me if I got more time for clinics. I expected that to come… So I was feeling very bad, pretty down that day although the crown was a perfect issue… Thursday bridge issue was ok also… Dr Willy Chang mah, can smoke smoke a bit. Got to patch up the margins abit but all was well. The problem was the crown for that patient… The margins not really nice… Tried means to burnish, shave with white stone and etc… Still can see a cement line after cementing… Think might have been my fault when the impression was taken and the way I prepared my die… Haiz… Still it was issued and hope the crown and bridge will be fine after the holidays. Got to psycho Karen to say ok and not to redo it..

Complain time!!! I missed my CSI on Tuesday coz we got the awards day and stayed back for the FYP thingy. This time is really fed up liao loh… Stay back late nevermind one… But already how many days was used to do that poster liao… Still make me miss my CSI… DAMN DULAN that night loh… Then some more got to still finish up the powerpoint they edited. I wonder why people don’t go put in effort to learn things they use everyday. As if I am born good in the things I know. It also took me ages to try and error, read BOOKS and manuals…

My video editing software that I know, I went to borrow book from library. So is my webpage designing software… MS Office, I tried and error so many time until I sian liao… I learn things that I dunnoe… Coz I believe nobody owes me anything. So when a problem arises, I must be the one to solve it. Depending on other people is so unreliable. One minute they say yes, then the next moment, they forgotten what the promised. I am not trying to show off that I am good to anyone by doing my own lab work and such… Frankly, I still think my labworks sucks compared to the lab technicians… I do because I know I can do it, I am taught to do it and I can control the quality of the end results, making treatment more predictable. Next time in my practice, I would also send my stuffs to the same lab so it’s predictable… In school, we have so many lab technicians all giving different standards of work. Hard to predict results. Furthermore, we are rushing for time. So everything should go well so to save time… Then there are people who send in all their lab work and still say no time to do other stuffs. WELL, HELLO… I din noe how to edit a video or make a webpage b4 I came into dentistry loh. I find time out of my busy schedule of doing my own lab work to learn loh… Can’t those guys find some time to learn how to use MICROSOFT POWERPOINT CORRECTLY??? See… Told you all I should have gone back to engineering… Webpage design and computer is a minor module they can take also… WTF…

Then my temper got a bit bad these weeks. Actually ignored Huemin that day because she said something to upset me… Well, I was really mad at other things liao… She just came in at the wrong time loh… But then again, maybe I just can’t handle her… She a bit too rebellious compared to my other sisters… Maybe I am not that suited to be her brother… =( I do care for her, concern and things like that, but… =( [Actually typed somethings here, but think I better delete them in case she gets mad at me]

Holidays liao… Time to get down to business… Got to plan my study time-table… Only got very few days left b4 the Finals… Haiz… Frankly, I dun have the mood to study… I really just want to enjoy the holiday and do nothing loh… But I can’t… Haiz… Ok, shall start on MONDAY… Give myself 2 days holiday first… Shall do whatever I wan and wait till Sunday night then say…

Angela and Libeng went over to Malacca liao. Dun know whether Jingli got go or not. Coz something happen at home, so I think he might not go… Hope we win some cash, so at least I can get something to cover my `brokenness’… Actually dun win also good… Then that will be the end of the MISERY… KNN… Wait later win must come back redo the poster, powerpoint, etc… Tell you… If that happens I really TOTAL BOCHAP, SHUT OFF, TURN OFF MY PHONE, GO HOLIDAY, MISSING, KIDNAP MYSELF, LET MY LAPTOP AND DESKTOP ALL TIO VIRUS… Whatever it is, I will NOT lift a finger… Let them do it themselves… Had enough of all that nonsense… IT”s REALLY ALL CRAP!!!

又道说华语的时候了。。。

我的生活开始变得孤单，
变得很没意义。。。
已经很久没笑过了，
真得很久。。。
能让我笑的理由，
也越来越少了。。。
可是那一天，
我笑了。。。
=）
谢谢你。

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